hellooooooooooooooooooo?   hellooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo?

anybody there?

whatever thoughts

It’s every night now

It’s every fight now

I’ve every right now

But I just don’t care

So leave me alone now

Tell me you know how

You’ve studied your great Tao

I just want to share

I know you’ll never really know the thoughts inside my head

I’m laying here beside myself dictating to my bed

My thoughts all flow like Vaseline they stick inside my skull

It’s clear to me just what I mean but meanings never full

I can’t express the words to say the thoughts I feel the hurts I hate

I can’t endure the words they say the things I feel their hates all hurt

It’s really quite pointless

My thoughts are all joint-less

And so I anoint this

My lasting affair

It’s five in the morning

And my body’s suffering

My eyes to the light cling

For sleep I don’t dare

And still I can’t care

I’m going nowhere

My thoughts are somewhere

Don’t ask why I share

I know you’ll never really know the thoughts inside my head

I’m laying here beside myself dictating to my bed

My thoughts all flow like Vaseline they stick inside my skull

It’s clear to me just what I mean but meanings never full

I just move on through every day to day my life is healing hurts

I just float on from me to then I know somehow its not the end.

I never really was a young man

I never really had a chance to make a plan

I was a young boy til I was thirteen

Right then and there is when I hit the scene

I never really had a future

I never really even knew for sure

But I still live in 4 wheel drive

That’s how I know that I am still alive

Cause I can make it on my own!

Yeah I can make it to the endzone

And I can do the things I really want to do

I know that I will never stop until I’m through….

I always thought I knew the answers

I always thought I knew the “his” from the “hers”

But now I see that I was crazy

And there’s no special way for things to be

I can still make it on my own

I’ll always make it to the endzone

And I can do the things I really want to do

I know that I will never stop until I’m through

I often dream about the future

I often dream about my perfect life

My well adjusted kids and happy wife

But that is all still in the future…

For now I’ll make it on my own

Carry that ball into the endzone

I’ll always do the things I really want to do

I’ll never stop until I’m through

I’ll never stop until my dreams come true

I won’t be through until my dreams come true…

The Heros Creed (or, Why Men Go to War)